fortis

Okay, first, I would just like to start off by saying how much it sucks when you need one of your closest friends, one of the people you thought would always be there for you and could but themselves aside even for 10 minutes to help you out, and then it turns out that no matter what their own hypocritical problems come before your own.

What is the most unfortunate thing about these situations is that not only are you upset about whats going on in your life, but you’re also pissed that you have to now deal with this person. And yeah, your friend needs to vent, but sometimes you wish they would think “Okay, is my bestfriend who just got back from a memorial in greater need than me who’s pissed off after I got slapped in the face after instigating a slap in the face?” I don’t know, but it really seems like the memorial should come first. 

And then, not only are they ignoring your needs completely, but they get mad at you for not being on your side when after explained, they were being the douche bag. And you’re not intentionally telling them “well dude, you kind of instigated her to slap you in the face, and then after she told you to shut the fuck up and you told her not to be a bitch because you’d dealt with enough bitchiness that night and you get slapped it’s your fault” but it is YOUR FAULT.

Then comes today. Your bestfriend isn’t really mad at you at all, just a little disappointed but she understands, you purposely say hi to her and your other friend and completely ignore your ex who they were with infront of all of YOUR and HER friends to prove the point that you were mad. You couldn’t have just said hi to her, or not have said anything to any of them. And why are you mad at her? Oh not because she hooked up, but because of WHO she hooked up with. Not like it’s hard for her in anyway to see you hooking up with someone else. But she’s a good sport.

So you have the audacity to get mad at her and publicly humiliate her in front of a BUNCH of people just because you forgot what it feels like to be a teenager. Yeah, you’re mad she hooked up with a particular person she said she hated. Yeah, you can also love the people you hate. And no, you don’t get to be a fucking hypocrite about it. 

It is kindly suggested that you grow the fuck up and stop bringing me into this shit, whether on purpose or unintentionally, because I’m sick of it. I’m absolutely through with it. I have enough going on, and yeah most of the time it’s all good but set your priorities straight and understand not everything can always be about you and you’re NOT ALWAYS RIGHT.

fucking jesus christs cunt, goddamn.

I have honestly just had the shittiest weekend in a year and pretty much want to die.

later phone.again.